Sometimes when I have a bad day, like when my dad yells at me for not doing my homework right or when the bully takes away my milk money and I am forced to go an entire day without my daily supply of calcium, I listen to depressing songs that make me want to kill myself. I turn on some Barry Manilow, take a bunch of pills and drink several glasses of wine, and drift off to sleep. When I wake up in the morning, I am saddened, disappointed that God hasn't taken me home to stay with him...
Not really, although I do like drinking several glasses of wine and waking up wondering how I ended up on the floor in the morning. But it's been gloomy out over the past couple of days. It's been raining ever since Sunday. On these dreary days, I do a lot of thinking. Yesterday, I just stared out my window, listened to some Creed, just thinking, longing, and reminiscing about little redhead girl that just got away. Man, I miss her so much. Please, Sheila, come back to me. I am dying without you...
Not really, I don't even know anyone named Sheila. But I have been listening to lots of music recently. I like to imagine I'm in a movie and my iPod is the soundtrack. When it rains, I'd have on a sad song that really sums up the mood of the day, or I'll throw on an upbeat track to throw myself off, because I like to think of life as a strange fucked up film, with lots of character actors and smash cuts after awkward moments.
Really.
I think mostly anything on the radio sucks nowadays and when I'm driving and the radio is on I spend my time changing channels trying to find a good song and most of the time it doesn't come up. I assure you I'm not bagging on all the popular stuff to sound cool and hip, because if anything I'm warm and, I dunno, an arm. My mom knows more about the current bands and artists and hits than I do. Sad but true. And by sad, I'm referring to her, not me. She's in her 50s and everytime I see her she tells me how she's going to buy the new Christina Aguilera CD.
Not all current pop songs are bad. I actually like that "London Bridge" song by Fergie. It makes absolutely no sense, but I like how Fergie just makes shit up and people repeat after her. And "How to Save a Life" by The Frey, because HBO used that for their end of season/new season montages and I'm a sucker for those. And Justin Timberlake brought "SexyBack". I didn't know Sexy went away, but I'm glad she's back. Well done, Justin.
I'm open to everything, except stuff that sucks.
This is the playlist I threw together just now.
- Dean Martin - My Rifle, Pony, and Me
- Billy Joel - Goodnight Saigon
- The Postal Service - Against All Odds (Phil Collins Cover)
- Nirvana - Here She Comes Now
- Pearl Jam - Immortality
- Alice in Chains - Nutshell (unplugged)
- Velvet Underground - Heroin
- Gorillaz - Kids With Guns
- Nine Inch Nails - The Mark Has Been Made
- Land of the Loops - Welcome (Back)
- Notorious BIG (feat. Bob Marley) - Hold Your Head
- Immortal Technique - Dance With the Devil
- The Fugees - How Many Mics?
- Jay-Z (feat. Eminem) - Renegade
- Dead Prez - Hell Yeah
- Ghostface Killah - Underwater
- Non Phixion - Black Helicopters
- Big L (feat. 2Pac) - Deadly Combination
- Gang Starr - Battle
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